In our first blogpost we sorted out what Eleine actually is about.
In this post I thought I can show you more of the modeling part of my life.
I come from a very loving home, but I had a rough time in school. I was bullied from the very beginning to the very end. It was awful, as a result, I always compared myself to others from a very early age. And that’s one of the most dangerous things you could ever do to yourself – compare.
I won’t lie, I still find myself comparing myself to others and feel bad about one thing or another from time to time. But then I always remind myself of who I am.
Do NOT compare yourself to others. Admire instead, and remember that you’re such a beautiful person yourself.
When I was off to take some portraits for a CV, at the age of 19, the photographer mentioned that I was very easy to photograph. I easily made a great picture, and he also said I definitely should try out to be applied by an agency. Kind of sweet to say, but as other photographers said the same I decided to apply to an alternative agency, and I was accepted. I couldn’t believe it. I never thought it would be possible for me.
I started off making contact with some photographers nearby and started to build up a portfolio. After some time I had a strong portfolio with lots of good photos. That’s when I launched the official Eleine facebook page and started to spread the word and pictures. It went really well! I remember that very early on, this amazing woman who runs Gothic and Amazing, Sil Costa wrote me. This woman is one of my guardian angels. Still to this day haven’t had the opportunity to met her in real life, but we chat often and since the start she has believed in me. I couldn’t have had a better start in my career, I’m forever grateful to her.
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Fuck haters! Where are they now? Nowhere, leading their regular, boring, little lives in front of the TV...
Poor haters :D
You won at life, so enjoy it :D
Hey. Love this blog entry. I have a similar history. Close family and violent abuse at school, both physical and psychological, which caused me to think much the same as yourself. Anyway, fuck all the haters and bullies. Apart from little kids who don't know better, the rest of them are nothing but sneering assholes and abusers who seem to only live to belittle others. Glad to see you've given them the proverbial 'finger' and done what you do. I sing in a very angry hardcore Punk band and I write a very dark and violent sci fi saga. I find both of them useful for getting angry feelings out of my system ;) I can definitely relate to you on that. Good for you and keep up the good work ;)
Needless to say that modeling is overblown for the past few years. Im not sure if thats good or bad but it seems like it needs a bit more individuality, which you have no doubt.
I watched other stuff you published and on stage I think you're into Tribal gothic, right?
I saw it on your Landskron fest video.
Do you prefer to wear that on model shooting or just on stage?
Fuck bullies and fuck people who make you feel you're worth less! I was also bullied in school and the best thing to do is ignore those wankers and bide your time. It's kind of like the ugly duckling story... you may be a freak to everyone else, but find your flock of swans and you will shine brighter than any bloody duck!
Sorry for the outburst but these kinds of things get my blood boiling every time :)
I guess they where jut jealous of you and your beauty :* And on top of being beautiful and a natural model, you are a talented musician :*
You can't compare to anybody, you are unique :*
I have read this text many times since you put it up, and I was thinking about what to write without sounding weird :)
I found so many similarities between us, life at home was great but school was hell. But I took a bit different path, and fought anybody and everybody, so I spent a lot of my time in detention :D
And Sil is an amazing lady, she believes in people and good in this world, always ready to help. Such people are so rare and precious. I hope we will all get to meet in person one day :)
I have read this text many times since you put it up, and I was thinking about what to write without sounding weird :)
I found so many similarities between us, life at home was great but school was hell. But I took a bit different path, and fought anybody and everybody, so I spent a lot of my time in detention :D
And Sil is an amazing lady, she believes in people and good in this world, always ready to help. Such people are so rare and precious. I hope we will all get to meet in person one day :)
After seeing your gallery and this blog I remained speachless.
Must continue to some clips becouse this day belongs to you Eleine.
one thing bugs me a bit. Agfter those photo guys finished with shooting you, u started your facebook page? Not that Im ungratefull for that hahah just wondering why didnt you seek some better paid modeling career? Passion perhaps ;)